within you without you

We were talking-about the space between us all And the people-who hide themselves behind a wall of illusion Never glimpse the truth-then it's far too late-when they pass away. We were talking-about the love we all could share-when we find it To try our best to hold it there-with our love With our love-we could save the world-if they only knew. Try to realize it's all within yourself No-one else can make you change And to see you're really only very small, And life flows ON within you and without you. We were talking-about the love that's gone so cold and the people, Who gain the world and lose their soul- They don't know-they can't see-are you one of them? When you've seen beyond yourself-then you may find, peace of mind, Is waiting there-And the time will come when you see we're all one, and life flows on within you and without you

- george harrison

bit all my fingernails tonight

y'all don't understand

the pain i feel.

i miss you george,

in this world

please come back

it's not too late.

musings from the train - on love

 so i, in consultation with the leading experts in the field, have come to the conclusion that falling in love is a chemical and biological reaction that leaves the affected person with no ability to reason and function for the duration of the said reaction and hence without any consideration of long term well-being. it may of course, out of pure luck, turn out that love leads some of us to better futures but no one can deny that the intensity of feelings we experience during the reaction have no bearing on the success of the relationship as a whole or for any specific time frame. take me for instance. as chet baker says, i fall in love so easily i fall in love so fast. just humming the song in my head makes me wanna fall in love with him but that's beside the point. so yes, i do. no offense to exboyfriends, i fell in love with each one of you for different but perfectly great reasons as you all excel in countless ways. except you. and you know who you are. but when i look back i remember that i thought i could possibly not love anyone more for each and every relationship.  i totally kid myself into thinking with each relationship, i reached the top! oh and yes, i was also completely blind to any barriers that would otherwise (to a regular human being) seem insurmountable. because love knows no boundaries, right! yeah right :) and love changes people, no? when you direct a significant amount of your compassion to a single person, it can do wonders!  lazy asses like myself, become action-people. you want bubblegum? let me run for a mile to the nearest store. got a backache? let me get the lotion and rub you down for an hour! and the action-loving ones (like myself again, yes i am very versatile) stay glued to the tv to watch the world snooker championships (no not me i swear). hey, it's a beautiful day and my friends are having a bbq, but i'll stay in with the shades down only to cuddle with you!  ok ok i know we all sacrifice things for each other but you know we are going with our best sides forward when we are in love. so come on people, agree with me, falling in love is an anomaly, falling in love is a reaction, falling in love is chemical, falling in love is not us, falling in love is not unique, falling in love is crazy! not to say we don't want to experience any of those things...and really i am not writing this to suggest  that falling in love is something we should try to avoid, on the contrary, i think it is good to jolt oneself out of the monotony of life, explore our limits as well as others', lose our usual everyday cockiness, determination, selfishness, and forget about our friends and family for a little while.  especially knowing that we will get all that back, in due time!