lost

to love and not want the whole world. (like if you eat too much you get fat.)

but there was nothing to eat. except for a sandwich,
with peanut butter that looked like shit.

and you certainly couldn't take a shit.
because there was no toilet paper.
you could use your underwear of course
to wipe off.
still, the bathroom, did not have a door.
and there was no toilet paper.

you couldn't sleep.
because if your sleep was too deep,
you wouldn't hear them call your name.

who are these people with me.
they want water they want toilet paper
where is the humanity?
we are not animals!
at this point, humanity escapes me.

to be with you, is all i want.

somebody is dying out on the street. i can hear him scream. my next door neighbors are having sex again. when they first moved in, she used to scream, too. now just like his, her voice is muffled, just like his, her heartbeat is faltering. the world continues to fuck them both. neither of them care. i hear the ambulance, the police. they are closing off the street that i walk on every day.

their lives are taken.
your mind is racing.
but you tap your watch, is it broken?

the rain is falling.
as you lean back on the concrete floor.
but you don't hear it.
you don't hear me.

one more child is born.
one more name is called.
it's never going to be over.

you know you are going to cry.
when it's all over.